Opinion And Truth

Islam is the way of life..

2011-06-16T08:21:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum..

Sedang aku duduk menonton televisyen td,

Tiba-tiba aku terfikir tentang hidup aku..

Am i living a happy life??

Sad life or miserable life??

To be honest, i'm living a miserable life..

Sejak aku kecik, aku selalu kurang bernasib baik..

I was a black sheep of my family..

Nak mintak benda susah..

Ye bapak aku keje susah tapi aku selalu rasa unfair..

Baju t-shirt pun aku takde..

Kutip baju-baju2 abang then pakai..

Boleh cakap semua ahli keluarga aku benci dengan aku..

Bodoh+kurang ajar=memang la kena ban..

Tapi seriously aku macam tertekan..

Jadi berdendam dengan keluarga sendiri..

Nasib baik mak ada..

Thank you mom..

Time aku dapat 7A dlm PMR,aku igt diorang akan sayang aku..

But,i was wrong..

Sekejap je..then benci balik..

Aku lack of love kot so what do you expect??

Memang la mulut jahat..

Tapi aku go on gak..

Even dihina dan dimaki,aku pursue TESL..

Once again,malang..

Fail pulak..semua sebab main-main..

Lagi la diorang benci..

Aish..

Tapi aku bertekad nak bagi dapat Dekan time sambung degree which i did(Thank you ALLAH)

O.M banyak ajar aku communciation skill which banyak buat aku matang..

Sekarang ni ok sikit la..

Nak pegi makan angin kat Sabah pun dah ajak aku..(LUCKY :) )

So about family da solve tapi...

Ade 2 things plak jadi masalah..

I'm losing my besties..

As time moves,it change me and my besties..

Things just crumble down..

Kawan baik yang aku anggap macam adik beradik da bergaduh ngan aku..

Hmmmm...

Aku memang ada kawan..quite a lot la kalau nak kire yang ada kt UiTM Perak..

Tp besties dari Melaka plak aku hilang..

What a life.. :(

Next about love life..

Like a said earlier, i have a bad luck..

Aku dah kapel banyak sangat..

Sangat banyak..

Tapi sorang je aku betul-betul nak buat jd isteri..

She's Farhana..

Aku tak pernah layan die ngan baik and now she's kicking me out of her life..

Which certainly happens before..

Aku broke up kejap and then realize i'm making a huge mistake..

Kapel balik and now i'm doing it wrong again..

To sum it all up,

Aku tak tawu kenapa aku tulis semua benda ni.

Aku takde tempat untuk cakap benda ni..

Luckily i have u,Blog..

Maybe, it is written yang aku memang kena hidup sorang..

Tak payah la ade family, kawan or awek..

Aku ni jahat sangat kot sampai semua benda dekat aku terluka..

Sejak kecik,semua benda yang aku sentuh,hancur..

Korang bagi la basikal ke..

Robot ke..

Raket ke..

Aku pegang 2 minit je mesti hancur..

Since primary, secondary to university life, I've always alone..

Seriously aku rasa sunyi sangat..

There are certain point aku rasa nak bunuh diri..

Apa guna ada harta or ilmu or whatsoever thing valuable if you got no one to share it with you???

I'm such a loser..

But ..

Realize that Islam doesn't need you, rather you need Islam. Therefore, do not try to

misinterpret authentic Islam. Do not try to change Islam, rather allow Islam to change you and

allow you to achieve your potential and true happiness

Ni ayat yang aku ambik dari fb I love islam...

CUKUP LA...

Enough being loser..

I'm living my life alone and i need only Allah..

Nothing else matter..

Better this way rather than hurting anyone close to me..

Better aku jadi pendiam..

Cukup la bercakap tu..

Hmmm..

Aku percaya Allah akan sediakan sesuatu yang baik untuk aku..

Hope result aku baik..

Amin...

Her Birthday

2011-06-12T08:28:00.000-07:00

I'm listening to adele-rolling in the deep song..

Yup..I do listen to this type of song..ddduuhhh..

Actually tomorrow is her birthday and i've mistakenly create a stupid jokes which could cost my relationship..

Fuck..

But..things happen..

That's why i'm listening to this song..

Damn..

I'm so not focused..

I'm trying to create a song/poem/whatever shit u call it...

But i'm stucked..

Which make me kinda piss..

Dah la..Bye

Avenged Sevenfold

2011-05-30T17:21:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum..

Aku baru je bangun dari tido..

With a blurry mind aku bukak youtube and dengar lagu avenged sevenfold..

Mule2 dengar afterlife je..

Then tergerak plak nk tgk v.clip so far away..

Aku da penah tgk v.clip ni..

Tp aku still nk ulang tgk..

So aku pn tgk la..

Bile aku dgr lagu ni,rasa laen..

Maybe sbb baru bgn tido..

Tp feeling die mmg best..

Maybe sbb lagu tu tribute utk drummer diorang yg da mati kot..

Seriously aku rase sumthing bile dgr lagu ni..

Rase sayu laen mcm..

Ni lirik die

"So Far Away"

Never feared for anything
Never shamed but never free
A life to heal the broken heart with all that it could
Lived a life so endlessly
Saw beyond what others see
I tried to heal your broken heart with all that I could

Will you stay?
Will you stay away forever?

How do I live without the ones I love?
Time still turns the pages of the book it's burned
Place and time always on my mind
I have so much to say but you’re so far away

Plans of what our futures hold
Foolish lies of growing old
It seems we’re so invincible
The truth is so cold

A final song, a last request
A perfect chapter laid to rest
Now and then I try to find a place in my mind

Where you can stay
You can stay away forever

How do I live without the ones I love?
Time still turns the pages of the book it's burned
Place and time always on my mind
I have so much to say but you’re so far away

Sleep tight, I'm not afraid
The ones that we love are here with me
Lay away a place for me
Cause as soon as I'm done I'll be on my way
To live eternally

How do I live without the ones I love?
Time still turns the pages of the book it's burned
Place and time always on my mind
And the light you left remains but it’s so hard to stay
When I have so much to say but you're so far away

I love you
You were ready
The pain is strong and urges rise
But I'll see you
When He lets me
Your pain is gone, your hands untied

So far away
And I need you to know
So far away
And I need you to need you to know

I Just Can't Get Enough

2011-05-26T10:11:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum..

Da lame tak dengar lagu b.e.p..

Tibe2 ajim ade lagu ni..

Aku pn teruslah dengar..

The first time i hear it, i had an eargasm..haha

Seriously fergie voice melt all my manly ego..

Bukan maen sedap lagi lagu ni..

Tapi meaning die lagi cool la..

I just cant get enough of my farhana hasri..

CHOW :P

Love Me Hate Me.. I dont give a crap!!!!

2011-05-25T00:14:00.001-07:00

Assalamualaikum..

Tajuk pn da explain everything..

I had almost everything in Malacca when i'm 19..

Besties and bestgirl..yeah..the best girl..

I can't wish anything better than that..

I'm blessed..Truly blessed with it..

But life goes on..

I pursued my degree in Perak..

I met few people and make few enemies..

But still...

I do miss Malacca..

I might perform better in Perak but i'm happier in Malacca..

The best thing about Malacca is people..

People i met there..

They meant a lot to me..

Anyway, I'm back with my ex's..

She's the biggest piece of my heart puzzle..

No one can replace her..

If i told u i love u, then i'm fucking lie to u..

Sorry..

This is a fact.. I love her and only her..

Love u Farhana Hasri..

Islamic Warriors

2011-03-30T23:10:00.000-07:00

Assalamulaikum..

Da dekat 2 semester aku kat sini..

And I tried a lot of things to make it as my hobby..

Lot and lots of things..

I hit the gym..Bust my ass running around the campus and tried ping pong..

FINALLY...

Jeng3

I found a great hobby which some of you may find it boring..

Reading..

YES..READING!!!

Wan Long do read books ok..

This hobby is inspired by my ustaz @ Ustaz Hamdi..

He seems to know everything.

Seriously..He know about Ikhwan Safa which most of us never care to know..

Enough about him..

My beloved buddy Mohd Izullah a.k .a alang brought a book when I hang out with him during lunch time..

This is the book..

I read and can't stop reading it..

My interest in Abdul Latip Talib books grew rapidly...

Alhamdulillah..

X susah pun nak cari buku-buku ni..

Kt sini ade pasar malam each Monday..

Ade lak brader yg jual buku2 agama..

Mmg byk gile buku die..

Aku pn borong sakan la buku2 die..

Dlm collection aku da ade buku Saidina Abu Bakar, Khalid Al Walid n Salahudin Ayubi..

Ade lg 2 buku which is The Battles of Prophet n Shahih Bukhari..

Aku tgh bace buku ni SALAHUDIN AYUBI..

Sangat Menarik..

That's my story for this month..Thank You

Pak Guard

2011-02-21T18:29:00.001-08:00

Assalamualaikum..

Da lame x tlis blog..

Rndu membebel sorang2 kt sni..

Anyway, let go straight to my story..

Beberapa mggu lpas aku kne sman pak gad..

Knape??

Sbb x pkai helmet..

Tp bkn aku yg x pkai..

Sebenarnye member aku yg x pkai..

Meh aku cite dr awl..

Aku nk park moto kt fAculty n kwn aku nk park kt parking lot yg jauh gile babeng dr faculty..

Aku pn ngan baek ati pelawa la naek ngan aku smpai faculty..

Lps die park moto, aku pn bwk la..

Smpai kt faculty,aku ngan heran n bengangye ternmpk die x pkai helmet..

Nsb baek x kne sman..

Tp malang ku berbau duit..

Aku disaman pak gad time nk anta die g parking lot..

Nk wat camne..da slah kan so trme je la..

TAPI!!!!!

x boleh ke die bg warning dlu ke..

Tgur elok2 ke..

Asal nk ckp kasar2 then bg saman??

Mmg la 10 rggt je tp bkn sume student uitm kaye..

Bg warning dh la..

X rugi pn dwet bapak ko klu ko warning dlu..

Ko sman aku byk2 pn bkn naek gaji..

Bayang la ank ko kne sman camtu ngan PAK GAD cam ko..

Mls nk ktuk lebih2...

Polis pn leh tolak ansur g..ko tu JAGA je..

Please be a little more considerate toward others la..

Kte same2 Islam x kan x leh tolak ansur..

Dont Be Sad Nor Too Happy

2011-01-20T16:17:00.000-08:00

Assalamualaikum..

I'm currently studying Don't Be Sad book which is a top seller around the globe..

And i know why it does..

Dlm buku tu ade byk sgt motivational tips related to our religion..

Aku tawu psl buku ni pn dr blog Jamilah Azhar..Thanks to u Jamie..

Before i study the book, i was wandering inside the mosque trying to find a book to read..

Err ade byk kitab tafsir tp ilmu x tggi..

Bce kang laen plak aku tafsir kang..

Then aku ternmpk bku Dont Be Sad dkt2 slh satu rak..

Aku pn amik la bace smntara nk mnggu waktu isyak..

Then,I realized..

This book is so beautifully crafted..

I try to applied things taught in the book and it does work..

Dlm buku ni ade section yg eplain psl mrh n dendam..

Lame tol aku belek bab tu..

And my temper kind of lesser and lesser now..

Alhamdulillah..

Buku ni tebal gak n aku x smpai stgh g pn..

I'm going to keep on reading..

Because knowledge about Islam is never enough..

Intersection

2011-01-12T23:47:00.000-08:00

I totally suck in grammar so sorry if there are many errors in my story.. :p

SInce we was a child,our parents always told us to make the right decision..

Hang with the right person so you will turned out to be a good man..

I've come to one big intersection in my life..

I'm the guy who always makes the wrong decision..

But..

I've changed..

I think i'm a wiser man now..

I analyze all the things around me and see how things can be perfectly solved without nerve wrecking situation..

Still..

I'm afraid i'm gonna made a wrong decision AGAIN!!!

If got tonnes of question to answer before i make my decision..

Let me reveal some of the questions:

1)Is there any love left or a relationship like this bound to responsibility??

2)Can i search someone better??

3)If i found someone better,can she hold me down for i'm a ticking time bomb??

4)Karma is going to hit me back or not if i left her??

5)Am i going to have better future without her??

I'm still thinking and weighing the best option..
Hope Allah give me signs and lead me out of this mind boggling rpoblem..

How life make fun of us..

2011-01-04T07:28:00.000-08:00

Aku rase mcm hidup aku start time umo 18..
Time start TESL mcm dark ages aku nk matang..
But i never regret it..
One of the best moments in my life kot..
Tp da msuk degree kt uitm sri iskandar da mcm main event..
Point where every decision is important..
No room for errors..
I had no errors left..
Alhamdulillah..
I got back on track and lancing on the dean list..
Aku mmg laen la dr Ridzuan setaun lepas..
Dr someone yg fully worshiping American Culture to someone who knew things best..
Aku dlu cam x de agama..
Prngai mcm syaitan..
Seb baek tansfer dtg sni..
Classmate aku seb baek ok..
Aku terselamat while there is more who are drifting way far from their tracks..
Aku da mcm freaks pn ade..
Aku kejap lyn Asking Alexandria..
Kejap dgr Slam..
Tp skrg aku dgr je pape yg sdap..
Watpe nk dgr satu jenis lagu sdgkan byk g lagu2 sedap..
Lagu ni mcm makanan..
X kan hari2 nk mkn ayam..
Byk g lauk sedap..
But not all things leh ckp camtu..
Love for example..
Aku da byk tgk hbgn crash and burn..
I tried to save mine..
Tp ssh..
It's really hard..
Distance does make an impact..
The hardest thing i the world is to be loyal..
To be honest,yeah i do text the other girl but i never asked them to be my girlfriend..
NEVER EVER...
Biar la..
Kapel2 ni pn wat ape..
Blm tentu jd isteri..
I got almost nothing left..
Juz a few buddy,an I-POD,my bike and my family..
HAHAHA
My life feels like a joke..
But...
Hold on..
I'm coming fast to the peak..
HAHAHAHAHA

IMY

2010-07-15T11:53:00.000-07:00

Da lame gak aku stay kt sri iskandar ni..
Tmpt ni cam lg best dr Lendu sbb sgt equipped..
P.M Fisal mmg jage gile student die..
Tp Uitm Alor Gajah still kt hati..
Uitm tu ade sentimental value..
Kt sini environment die laen..
Cam berpuak2 pn ade..
Tp x ksh la..
Jnji x kcau aku..
Roomate aku lwk2 la..
2 dr kelantan..
1 dr KL..
n aku ade DOY kt sni..
so ade la mmber2 yg rpt..
Dtg sni tibe2 aku jd laen..
Maybe sbb Doy..
aku jd rpat ngan MPP..
Satu MPP knl aku ngan doy..
kitorang part 1 da trlbt cam2 ngan MPP..
jage pc fair la.
g men bowling ngan MPP la..
best gak..
dpt tnjk ajar camne nk jd ketua..
kalau dlu aiman sll ajr aku leadership skill..
eemm.. :(
sedey la plak bile teringat time TESL lu..
tp aku yg ruin pluang tu..
maen2..
huuurrrmmm..
x pew la..
da nsib bdn..
kt sni TARGET AKU IALAH..
1)DPT 6 PACK
2)DPT POINTER 4.0
3)JD CLASS REP
4)JD MPP

aku skrg rjin g gym..
x pn push up kt blik..
bile aku workout teringat kt ajim,mubin ngan mox..
diowang sll ktuk2 time aku workout..
hahaha..
x rugi ade kwn baek camtu..

AKU RINDU KWN2 TESL..
TAPI AKU ADA MASA DEPAN KT SINI..AMIN.

I Wonder Why...

2010-06-03T23:33:00.000-07:00

I see the world in a new perspective..
Not just see it but think about it as a whole..
Like why does it happening,why it turned out that way..
I was waiting for the buses at A.Star..
Suddenly an old chinese man approached me and asking for alms..
He looks like an old chinese man in China..
With his long white beard,old cane and a half balded head..
So i gave him 1 ringgit..(no biggie la,1 ringgit only)
But the crowd gave me a wierd look..
Some kind of(Why u give the old man that money) but i just ignored it thou..
A few minutes later,i know why the give me that look..
That old man smoke ciggie with da money that i gave him..
Damn..
Curse u old man...
I let the day be "stupid day of mine"

And karma definitely happening this time..
I'm in da same bus to Kangar with that damn old man..
I was like'What is he doing in Kangar' but i was too busy thinking about my work..
2 days later i'm on my way to work when i saw that old bastard again..
And this time he's trying to do da same old tricks..
Sorry old whip..i'm not a fool..
i gave him a looks and curse him a little bit(not too much because i'm late for works)
Hahaha..That make 1 ringgit worth it..

Friends..Anyone??

2010-05-27T19:22:00.000-07:00

Sjak abis tesl ni kwn2 pn da mkin renggang..

Dlu kt hostel bkn men baek g..

G mkn rmai2..

Tp skrg aku cam da x de kwn..

Ade due tige org yg ddk dekat2 jew..

Tp ajak jmpe pn ssh..

Hidup aku skrg ngan keje jew..

Seb bek la ade si Nisa..

Bdk perlis ni kuat latah..

X la jemu aku time keje..

Tp kdang2 aku nk gak msj ngan mmber2 lame..

Tp diowang sombong gile..

Aku x taw la nape..

Msj pn x bls..

Call pn x angkt..

Pew la yg ssh sgt nk bls msj mmber2 lame2??

1 sen je pn.

X kan tu pn nk brkire..

adoyai..

Online facebook pn x taw nk watpe..

Bnde same jew tiap2 ari..

Bosan..

Bek aku bce sal bola jew..

Sbb tu la aku delete abis org kt fb aku..stkt ade friends rmai2 tp x de pn nk tgur,better x de trus..

Mudah..

Biar la org nk ckp pew..

Degree t aku mls da kwn2 sgt..

Cam apew g..

Stkt kwn time jmpe jew bek x pyh..

Frust sial..

Smlm aku break lak..

Parah2..

Tp aku just deal with it la...

Nk wat camne..

Da takdir..

Jang ngan Itik pn da mlsh gak..

Tp diowang rilex jew..

So aku pn nk try jd camtu..

Maybe it is written yg aku x leh da kwn nor gf kot..

Pape la..Trme jew la..

:(

2010-05-06T08:13:00.000-07:00

Mulut aku mmg kuang ajar gile..
Aku pn ckp x pk..
Maen smbur jew..
Bile aku ckp someting..
Mostly aku akn nyesal..
Pnh sbb mlut aku x de kwn..
Hdup kosong tp x de mslh...
Bile ade kwn..
Mlut aku wat psl..
Mule la nk terkasar bhse..
adoi..
Aku sensitif n pnas brn..
Sbb due sft bodoh ni la aku sll gado..
Gado ngan semue org..
Gado ngan family,gf,kwn,msuh...
uurrrmmm..
kdang2 aku rase letih nk hdup..
cam lame g jew..
uuuuuuuuuuurrrrrrrrrrrrmmmmmmmmmmmm...

NO FRIENDS...NO LOVE..NO FAMILY..I GOT NO ONE...I'M LONELY...

MY EMO=ALESANA SONGS..

2010-02-21T00:52:00.000-08:00

I don't want your pity..

I hate your pity..

As you build your dreams on my shattered hopes..

Suffer alone in emptiness..

Who do you see with your eyes shut tight..

Regret will be your bride..

Please, try more carefully that you dont need me..

This back and forth is killing me..

Your empty words drift aways like fragile whispers..

I saw the days when the fire left your eyes..

Your tongue fell still..

Your treason is silence..

Take everything from me silent angel..

Leave me nothing to remind of this time now lost..

Mind Puzzle

2010-02-19T03:49:00.000-08:00

Da bersawang blog aku ni..

cam otak aku pn da gak..

so camne la aku nk amik final ni..

safa pn time study leave..

aku bangang grammar..

smggu mane ckp nk study..

klu maen, lg la x study...

group assignment edu ngan doll house pn x wat g..

pening palo...

tu bab study..

kte brgrak ke bab wanita..

why women are so-based on emotion??

aku sbuk skrg..

npe la nk majuk2??

kapel da nk msk 6 blan..

half year bai..yyeepppppppiii...

tp gado tiap2 ari..

x nk break..

sbb aku syg die n x nk lukekan ati die..

tp tiap2 ari gado..

owang ckp gado tnda syg..

tp ni tiap2 ari gado..

da over dose syg dah..

aku juz hrp aku leh blah dr tesl cpt2..

nk cri dwet..

nk bli moto rxz..hahahaahaha

and

happy ngan si dia...

WAITING..

2010-01-30T17:53:00.000-08:00

Ape yg aku tggu?
Waiting for the skies to pour blood?
hahaha..thats itik tagline...
dr bln 5 taun lps smpai la arini...
rase cam cpt gile..
lots of things happen..
plus mr ishak meninggal..
terkejut gak aku pg td..
tp..
nk wat camne..
ajal..
let skip on that..
many things happen..
result suck..
muet dpt band 3..
stupid brawl..
byk gile dugaan aku..
i'm waiting for this semester to end..
i'm waiting to start a new life..

LAUGHING GAS...

2009-12-08T16:50:00.000-08:00

it's been a while since last i laugh hesterically..

mggu lpas jang,kendo,doy osman n mubin mluangkan mase utk pegi air pns gadek..

kitorang pegi ngan hrpn air pns tu ade kolam bsar swimming pool..

ceh...kolah mndi jew..

seb bek ade satu kolam besar..

x pe la..

mnd jew la..

aku yg terlupe bwk sluar pndek just pkai boxer putih..

bdk2 ni da wat bnyi mcm2..

pastu trun lam air...

huhu..bkn men pns g ha air die..

tibe2 trus ade 8 bijik telur rebus..hahaha..

tibe2 perut terase lapar..

aku pn g la bli burger..

eh...nape lapar g ni??

nek ats,tkar2 bju trus bli nasi lemak n sandwich kt tpi kolam tu..

hahahaha...bru knyang..best2...

time blik tu sume da ready nk g teratak hantu popular kt a.gajah..

alahai..nsb x de..mhl lak tiket..

sume blik kecewa jew

time smpai jew kt kolej,mubin,aku ngan madi terdgr bnyi2 pelik..

ape lg..sume pecut ha naek kolej..

last2 letih..

tu la..mntk nk jmp hantu bohong g...da jmp hantu btul....

AFTER ONE SEMESTER

2009-12-04T21:11:00.000-08:00

CHANGES!!!!!!!!!

HATE CHANGES...

NAPE LA NK UBAH2 SOMETHING???

KALAU SOMETHING TU DA OK,BIAR JE LA..

HAHA..

CHANGES...

CHANGES YG BUAT AKU JD CAMNI...

APA GN PNDAI KLU DULL???

ITS LIKE MONALISA WITHOUT COLOUR...

I'M NOW JUST A GUY IN FRONT OF DESKTOP...

EACH DAY..

B4 CLASSES AND AFTER CLASSES...

HOW CAN I BE HAPPY WITH THAT??

MLSH2 LEN PN TIME2 NI LA NK DTG...

X CKP KEW MSLH AKU??

LIFE WITH NO REASON...

HEARBEAT

2009-11-24T19:49:00.000-08:00

When I'm with you,

eternity is a step away,

my love continues to grow,

with each passing day.

This treasure of love,

I cherish within my soul,

how much I love you...

you'll never really know.

You bring a joy to my heart,

I've never felt before,

with each touch of your hand,

I love you more and more.

Whenever we say goodbye,

whenever we part,

know I hold you dearly,

deep inside my heart.

So these seven words,

I pray you hold true,

"Forever And Always,I Will Love You."

POEM

2009-11-18T04:06:00.000-08:00

I hold my teardrops,
Just like rain drops in the night,
Feel like my heart stop,
But small soldier hold me tight,
Want to scream,
Like shadows sight,
Sleep means endless dream,
Like restless fight,
Should i be alive,
Should i start a new life,
Life brings sorrow,
Misery does not end tomorrow.

I HAVE A BAD LUCK OR NO LUCK??

2009-11-18T03:43:00.001-08:00

PTSL2C
Ni la name class bru aku..
em..
aku x tau nk komen ape sal class bru ni..
maybe better than PTSL1B or maybe just ordinary..
next story..
a little argue with loved one became worst..
she had a broken leg..
a cut in her precious face ..
change to uitm dungun or arau..
haha..
am i laughing or crying..
it getting worst..
my room key fell into bathroom hole..
haha..
what a luck..
low pointer make it worst..
other problem doesnt bother me much but..
why does she have to leave me??
i never felt this way..
if she suffered a broken leg,i suffered a shattered heart...
i am trying so hard to be happy..
hoping that this is just a bad dream...

LETTER OF DEATH

2009-11-17T05:06:00.000-08:00

Life is full of misery..
our life never always be happy..
all kind of shit happen to us..
people always said..
be strong friend..this just a test..
what a motherfucker are u??
said are easier than do..
fuck u..
suicide crossed my head few times..
living a life near death was enjoyable as life revive back..
should i suicide??
no..
why??
because someone still cares about u??
do they??
this is bullshit...
fucker..
bastard...

A piece of mind..

2009-11-08T05:18:00.000-08:00

final exam da abis
muet pn da abis
byk yg face problem time muet..
tp x pe la..
kte da wat..
nothing we can do about the end result..
klu dpt smbung b.ED tesl best la..
klu x dpt,cri je la yg len..
ape la nk pening2 pale..
haha...
aku agk gmbira tika muet dtg kerna
buat seketika..
level 3 wing 2 agak pnuh ngan kelibat2 rakan2...
wlaupn hnya skjap..
x la kesunyian mendakap aku sgt..
sometimes aku suke tgk faris..
bkn suke cara gay ye..
suke tgk die sbb die pndai entertain diri die..
die introduce aku ngan the bloody beetroots ngan steve aoki..
gempak gile music electro..
whop whop..haha
electro..
music that full of vibe..
make me wanna move...
music does influence us..
kepade sape2 yg stress..
dgr je music electro..
mmg best..
like i said..
music is universal..
jd x salah kalau aku suke electro,metalcore,pop,dangdut,nasyid n etc..
janji kte happy...
thanks faris for da electro songs...

BATTLE AGAINST CIGARETTE ADDICTION

2009-11-03T20:00:00.000-08:00

Smoking...

ape nkmat dunia yg terindah??

kan ku kata smoking...

hujah ku ini pasti akan disokong oleh beribu2 pengisap rokok yg lain...

sume smoker tau hazard yg bkal diterima tp nkmatnye lbih dr hazardnye..

itu jga pndapat aku mase dhulu..

what's good about smoke??

haha..

bile sedih..

kdang2 kwn x de..

sape pn x de...

tp rokok ade...

rokok la tmpt ku mengadu..

mslhku trbg brsama asap rokok itu..

sedikit sbyk mngurangkan tekanan yg dialami...

rokok sgt dbenci oleh kaum wanita...

nape??

rokok la tman tika kami sedih..

tp..

kata2 ayh jang serta ayahku mmbuatku sedar..

rokok bkn lah teman selamanya..

ia cuma mmbuat lubang di poket ku..

aku mula mrasai kesan asap2 durjana itu..

larianku mkin perlahan..

aku sering batuk2..

aku mula tertanya2..

adakah berbaloi aku memperjudikan nyawaku dengan sebatang rokok??

adakah nyawaku cuma bernilai 70 sen??

tidak2...

aku ingin hidup lbih lama..

utk mlihat ank dan cucuku berjaya..

mlihat perubahan dunia ..

ketika aku dimamah usia....

PENGALAMAN KE N DI RUMAH JANG

2009-11-01T08:52:00.000-08:00

Den mnunggu bas di bus stop..

tggu pnya tggu..

den nmpk bas..

bas mara kaler kelabu..

tulis kt situ alor gajah..

den pn naek la..

driver tu kate bas tu g kl..

aku pn nk trun la

tibe2 driver tu srh aku nek je ngan charge seriggit

ngan muke malu sdikit,aku naek je la..haha

ape jadahnye tulis ke alor gajah..

ish3..

aku igt bas biase..rupenye bas ekspres...

x pe la

pastu aku naek bas g tampin.

dlm bas tu aku nmpk sorang cina..

tindik kt idung..

igt india..

muke serabut jew..

usha2 aku..

oi..nk rgol aku ke ape??haha

x pe la

aku pn trun la bas

lame gile nk kne tggu bas g pilah..

bosan2..smbil tu aku terpk yg tampin ni kat melaka ke kt n9??

lame gak la pk..akhirnya aku tahu yg tampin kt n9...

haha..

aku akhirnya brjaya naek bas..pakcik bas tu pnye la kerek..panaz ati bai..

tmbang bas 4.10 sen..

aku bg la 10 rggt..

die ckp ksar2 lak..

"x ckp 10 sen"...aku ngan muke yg panaz abis cube mncari 10 sen..

akhirnya ku jmp..haha...aku bg sambil mnahan prasaan ingin maki pkcik tu..haha

lame gak la nk smpai pilah..

pilah mengingatkan aku kpd kedah..

land of paddy field..

yahoo..

aku pn smpai kt pilah..

jang pn dtg amik aku..

mule2 g karaoke lu..

jang mcm biase la..

amik la DONT CRY n FANTASIA BULAN MADU..

giler r...sore die x pcah lak....

time tu mmber die pn ade..mmg kaki karaoke la bdk pilah..haha

mlm tu bru la den smpai kt umah die..

eh bsar la umah die..

x pe la..

aku pn mkn la mlm..

sdap giler mak die msk..hoho..besh2..

mlm tu g syisya..

syisya tu bru jo

klu x, x do syisya kt pilah...haha

pegi pn da lmbt tp still lyn gak..

dh la time tu ujan...

best giler aku ckp kau..

x mcm syisya kt lendu..

asap die tbal giler..

dh la satu blang tu lyn due org jew..

gile la..pale aku skit nk mampus mlm tu..

terbaek lah syisya pilah..hahaahahhahahaha

pastu ade la g jln2 kt pilah..klu nk cite pnjg la...tp seriusly aku nk pegi g pilah..huhu

tq jang n family..

AKU KNE TGUR

2009-10-28T02:14:00.000-07:00

one day, aku kne tgur ngan sowang bdk form 3...

DAK:emm abg..abg rase abg baik x??

AKU:eh pehal kau ni..aku baik..haa..ape mslh kau??

DAK:abg x baik la..abg ni jht kot..

AKU:eh bdk ni..sdap2 kau lak nk kate kt aku..nk kne terajang ke ape??

DAK:abg ni..dh la jht,pns bran lak..

AKU:suke ati la...

DAK:tau x nape sye kate abg jht??

AKU:aku tau..sbb aku bkl trajang kau seminit dr skrg..haha..x la..nape??

DAK:ish wat lwk plak...abg taw x yg abg da lupe diri skrg??

AKU:kepala hayah kau..kau bg 5 sbb cpt sblm kau disepak berulang kali..

DAK:ye la..abg rase abg bgus sgt ke dpt ddk kt U??

AKU:leh thn bgus la..pehal??

DAK:abg da lupe sume benda..parents,smyg,kwn kt kg..mcm2 g..study pn da mls..

AKU:eh...bile mase aku lupe??x la..kau tduh ke ape??ksar brgurau dak ni..

DAK:btul kew??bile mase abg call parents??time nk mntk duit jew kan??smyg mmg sll jew tggll..kwn2 pn da jrang contact..

AKU:oit..x la..maybe btul..

bdak tu tibe2 hlang..

guess who is the kid????

MUSIC JUST FOR FUN..DONT TAKE IT TOO SERIUS

2009-10-27T18:48:00.000-07:00

aku minat bring me the horizon tp aku dgr jew lagu taylor swift gak..

ade owang ckp kt aku"x ganas r bai dgr lagu pompuan"...x ganas??

dgr lagu pn nk kne ganas kew??klu lagu tu sdap,slh kew aku dgr??

music kan universal...aku dgr mcm2 jenis lagu..

itu x menunjukkan aku x tetap pndirian...

aku appreciate music..

klu lyric tu best n music sedap,aku mst suke pnye lagu tu...

klu otak korang fix suke music from specific genre,mmg la otak korang x suke music from genre lain..

korang mcm force diri suke lagu tu..

bosan la asyik dgr lagu ganaz2 jew...

sekali sekala best gak klu dgr music slow...

x la life ni dull sgt..haha..

preferably dgr music ikut mood..

aku dgr lagu ikut mood..

agak2 aku happy,aku dgr la music relax2 ckit...

mcm COBRA STARSHIP kew..

ade owang yg nk mrh pn still dgr music ganaz2...mau x lg mrh..ish3...

cube dgr beethoven ke time mrh..kan cool ckit..

MR.PRESIDENT@DUNHILL14 fan

2009-10-27T18:46:00.000-07:00

Everyone love ANUAR MUSA..yes the one and only ANUAR MUSA a.k.a JANG...
ish...susah bona ckp inggeris..den ckp negori la...
dio la org first yg aja den bhaso negori..mulo2 susoh gilo nk ngikutnye..
lamo2 tu ok la...
first time den nmpok dio kt level otw to the toilet..
muko serius jo smbil mmegang DUNHILL 14..waa..
cam model a ekau ni Jang..haha..
den pn smoker gak..
so den pn togu la dio..
den pn chating la ngan dio..
muko serius bai..
den igt gangster mano a amik tesl lak..
ish3..
jang2..
muko dio mmg la lwk tp den respect die bai..
bkn sbb den baik ngan dio..
tp sobab dio pnyo point of view..
otak dio matang gilo...
positive jo..
always look on the bright side..
dio sll kato kan den''long,ekau ni cubo lo pk positif ckit"

jang..
den igt ayt ni..hahaha..
byk bondo yg den polik sal dio ni..
wat lwk tp muko x golak...
ekau ni ado remote control golak ko hapo jang??
musykil den..

kaler mmg ni sinonim ngan kaler DUNHILL

ekau mmg terbaik jang..
terbaik dr ladang kotum SD..
hahahahahahahahahaahahaha

Y suicide??

2009-10-27T18:44:00.001-07:00

i hope our friend MEOR is ok...

the thing that he did make me wonder..

Suicide is the answer to everything kew?

ade ke jwpn bg mslh ko time da last breath?

jwpn x de tp malaikat maut dtg amik nyawa ade la..

ade ke nikmat time ko nk mati??

sakit ade la..

yg bnh diri trjun bangunan..

ngan terjun tu leh solve mslh ko kew??

aku nk gak r klu leh..

tp aku pnh brada lam situasi tu..

stupid la klu bnh dri...

kte ade kwn..

nape x cite kt kwn??

bile kte trlalu pndam prasaan kte akn cri shortcut tuk mslh kte...

suicide bkn shortcut..

suicide is the source to more problem..

mati da la msuk neraka sbb bnh diri..

nk kne jwb ngan malaikat g kt kbur..

tu klu mati la..

klu blood clot kt brain kew..

jd paralyse ke tp x mati..

x ke nyusahkan parents ko..

kte sll pk yg nyawa kte hak kte..

orang len pn relate gak la..

ko pk ko x de sape2 lam dunia ni tp ko slp..

at least ade sowang yg care sal ko..

DONT DO SUICIDE

everyone got a problem

some even bigger problem

seek friends advice..

if too worst,seek professional advice..

STUDY OR KT UMAH LG BEST

2009-10-27T18:01:00.000-07:00

what do u think about it??

bg aku kt umah x best...

for someone mmg la best sbb leh jmp family n siblings..

but 4 me,rumah = kebosanan yg mmbunuhku..

nk lepak ngan mmber pn...hurrmmm

member ade yg smbong,study kt tmpt len,lost contact..

aq x taw klu pkra yg same jd kt korang tp this thing happen to me..

thats y aku lepak kt hostel jew..

ade gak tman bersembang..

klu study...

best r gak..

sbb ade gak pkra bru yg kte tau tiap2 ari..

tp nk g class,satu hal..

tido lmbt..

class pkl 8.30..

mane x lmbt g class...

assignment berbukit2..

haha..mane smpt nk siap..ish3...

rase nk blik umah lak time tu..

tp bile blik umah kte rase bosan..

so kte nk g mane time holiday utk mgelakkan bosan???

nk g brcuti??

x mampu..

nk g camping??

da bosan la camping...

nk g mane g??

any suggestion????